Developing Your Secret Life with Jesus

An Ecumenical Lenten Breakfast Talk, Merchantville, NJ, on February 27, 2002

by Rev. J.W. Gregg Meister, President, Interlink Media

As Christians, we seek an "Inner Kingdom of the heart" which is an interior, secret, private life with Jesus the Risen Christ. This inner kingdom is the terrain we are called to, that far country which is closer to us then our hands and feet. This Inner Kingdom constitutes the hills and valleys we are invited to explore.

This invitation calls us to a life time expedition, with faith in Christ our only passport. Our conviction-shared by every Apostle but clarified by St. Paul-is that this revelation of Jesus as the Christ comes not through the traditions and teachings or even good works of the human order but only through Jesus Christ, the Crucified and Risen Historical Jesus. This conviction-which for us is the foundation of our existence-is the obstacle and stumbling block which every man-made and woman-made system of belief chooses not to accept. Yet those of us who by grace believe it and claim it are increasingly like the Psalmist who yearned to "taste and see" - to experience first hand - that the Lord is good. As the deer pants for streams of water, our soul yearns for God. (Ps. 42 )That which is deepest in all the universe attracts the deepest in us with a magnetism so subtle it defies measurement yet so persuasive it defies resistance.

Nothing so satisfies the soul, offers the peace, salves the aching heart, or provides the joy, as the treasures uncovered in this Inner Kingdom. For our compass on this journey we yield to the promise that just over the margin of our daily living is the expectation of the union of our essential created nature with the Risen Christ, a union granted through the Holy Spirit.

What are some of the ways that we can develop, nurture and sustain this secret life with the Master? However we answer that-and we each must ultimately discover our own unique footpath, or the secret life would no longer be secret- the multitude of paths must revolve around the revealed Word of God in Scripture. While other philosophies and insights offer their illuminations, and many encourage all types of laudable works on behalf of the human venture, these foreign guides are like mere stars twinkling in the darkness or moonbeams across a lake. At their best they are only glimmers of the full revelation of God’s nature and purpose as revealed in what we call the Old and New Testaments, a Holy Nature given ultimate clarity through the accounts of Jesus of Nazareth. Knocking on these scriptures we can be certain that we will seek and find the contours of the kingdom of God, Yahweh, the Creator, the "I AM" of the burning bush-and not the shadows and mirages of the great imposter.

Reading the Word

First of all, therefore, we need for our own benefit on this spiritual expedition to develop the discipline of daily reading of the Word. While any method for such reading is better than none, we are blessed to have a structured way of doing so with the One Year Bible. Easily obtainable at most bookstores, it provides the option of several different translations. Organized by daily reading in the Old Testament, the New Testament, and the Psalms, in about 15 minutes a day you will read through the entire Bible in one year.

Reading the Bible does not of course mean that we understand it fully and in all its parts. But reading the Bible is the prerequisite for understanding it. More importantly, perhaps, is the fact that such a daily discipline demonstrates the intentions of the heart. Without such regular reading it’s like taking a cross country trip without a map. You could just follow the sun and stars and thus hold to the general directions of north, east, south and west, but your journey is likely to involve much meandering. Reading the Word helps guide the daily journey - and reading it in the morning helps the most. As one poet as written, "You must seek God in the morning, if you want Him through the day."

Praying the Word

After reading the Word, it’s useful to pray the Word. The benefits of clothing the soul in the language of the Word are numerous, for these are the words which promise the spiritual traveler wisdom for the moment as well as life eternal. We intuitively know this through our liturgies, for when we pray the Lord’s Prayer we are praying the Word given to us by the Supreme Prayer Himself. This collection of verses is shared by every manifestation of the Christian faith. Praying them is surely among the marks of genuine Christendom.

One of the most succinct sentences, however, for praying the Word is the Jesus Prayer, a gift to us from the Russian Orthodox tradition:

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

While we can spend hours discussing the depths of the Jesus Prayer, and a lifetime practicing it, let's take just a few moments now to underscore its value in the development of the secret life with Jesus.

Repeat the prayer silently, three times.

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Other prayers found in Sripture are also of great value. The Rosary, for instance, has tremendous depth, and with the possible exception of one phrase, is entirely scriptural: "Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord art with you. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus." These are the words of an angel! Only the cultural limitations that some of us have because we were raised in the Lutheran or Reformed traditions keep us from appreciating the Rosary. Even so, for many centuries the Rosary has tamed the dragons in the interior life of countless Christian saints.

Memorizing the Word

Praying the Word leads naturally to memorizing the Word. As challenging as we might find memory work, it can be, actually it probably will be, the only anchor we have when we find ourselves in the center of our greatest storms. There will be those times when you are all alone and in great need: on the gurney before the operation, in the wheelchair waiting, just waiting, for someone to come; the day after your loved one’s funeral. These are the moments when we can only draw upon whatever spiritual gems we have already polished along the path of our private walk Jesus. What will those be?

Let me give one example here, with the qualification that many of my friends are rather earthy and don’t always talk as if they’re sitting in a church pew. One very close colleague was telling me recently that he had just been hospitalized, in upstate New York, with a serious heart problem. He described how he was in the midst of what turned out to be three hours undergoing angioplasty. He said to me, "Gregg, it’s not particularly encouraging when your doctor has these tubes up your veins and he keeps muttering things like, ‘Damn, oh no, not that.’" After sharing his laughter, because for the moment at least he’s survived that ordeal, I asked him, "What were you thinking or saying to yourself at that moment." He paused and then responded, "You know, Gregg, I have seldom felt so alone. And the one thing that kept coming to mind was, ‘Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.’"

There is deep trust and great wisdom in that prayer which so many of us learned in childhood. To claim in our inner most beings the faith stance we learned in our youth at our hour of trial places us in good company with Jesus, because when our Lord was on the cross and cried out, "Father, into Thy hands I commit my spirit" He is praying the 22nd Psalm. I’ve been told that this is the phrase from that Psalm which Jewish parents especially in the first century taught their children at bedtime.

How sad and how empty must be the life which reaches deep at the hour of need and can find little more than fragments of a poem or a Beatles song, as lovely as those might be on a cloudless day.

We read the Word, Pray the Word and Memorize the Word.

We should also Sing the Word.

Even those of us who can barely carry a tune know that music addresses the soul-which is certainly one reason to be discerning about what music we attend to. But we are as human beings always in motion, with energy continually throbbing through us. Beats and notes and rhythms and pacing characterize us from our blinking eyes to our twitching fingers to our beating heart. It’s as if our whole being wants to sing and to "extol the Lord at all times," as the Psalmist says, in joy over the awakening awareness of our Creator and Redeemer and Sustainer.

Any biblical kind of lyric will do. One song that many people who are drawn to the contemplative life enjoy is one which you can try right now.

Jesus, I adore you. Lay my life before you. How I love you.
Father, I adore you. Lay my life before you. How I love you.
Spirit, I adore you. Lay my life before you. How I love you.
And another, especially good for the morning:

Come into my heart.
Come into my heart.
Come into my heart, Lord Jesus.
Come in today, come in to stay,
Come into my heart Lord Jesus.

Finally, when we leave here his morning, let us also Walk the Word.

St. Paul encourages us to pray continually: to make our life an offering of praise and thanksgiving. What better way to do that, what better way to harness the fundamental rhythm of our day, than to pray while walking. To give just one example of prayer walking, from which you will over the coming months and years discover your own variations, walk to the words of "Praise God." This is a silent prayer walk-because it’s the secret life in Christ that we are cultivating. With one step, silently say the word "Praise." With the next step, the word "God." And so on.

Let's close these remarks with the words from one of the great mentors of the secret life in Christ, Thomas Kelly, in his classic book, A Testament of Devotion.

There is a way of life so hid with Christ in God that in the midst of the day’s business one is inwardly lifting brief prayers, subdued whispers of adoration and of tender love to the Beyond that is within. No one need know about it. I only speak to you because it is a sacred trust, not mine but to be given to others. One can live in a well-high continuous state of unworded prayer. There is no hurry about it all. It is a life unspeakable and full of glory, an inner world of splendor within which we, unworthy, may live. Some of you know it and live in it. Others of you may wistfully long for it. It can be yours. Amen

The above presented by Gregg Meister, President, Interlink Media